I don't deserve you [KarkatxReader]

Dear [Name],

I know I can be an asshole at times,
I know a lot of the time I just yell my head off at you but...
It never ceases to amaze me that you stay.
I know I don’t deserve you.
You love me for me,
not who I try to be.
I try,
and push myself to be the leader that everyone needs,
but that doesn't mean I don’t get scared.
I still screw up
who the fuck doesn't
But you,
you always manage to bring out my best qualities,
making feel as if I’m actually worth something.
Before I met you,
there was a huge void in me that I felt would never be filled,
I thought it was just natural.
But to be accepted,
let alone loved by you.
I don’t know what i’d do without you now.

I don’t know how you fill my head,
hours on end.
You went from a simple girl I met
to entire my world.
Your what holds me together.
What I fight for.
I want to be the moon in your darkest moments,
your shelter from the rain,
that happy thought when you're scared.

Sometimes I slip,
and I make you cry.
When I see the tears staining your face,
you can’t even begin to understand,
how much regret fills my chest.
All I can think of,
is how to get that beautiful smile back.
And even after all the time we've been together,
I still get nervous,
I still constantly worry about saying something wrong.
I know it might be a little late but...

I love you.

~Karkat